What my childhood consisted of;

What my childhood consisted of;



So you want to know the truth




Enlightenment

Have you ever felt like you're connected with everyone and everything? That's what enlightenment means to me. 

Doing good for society is one thing, but if you do not have good intentions to help and be a good person, you might not be that person you think you are.

 A lot of people are currency chasers. Those who have so much, and lose their minds if someone is on the street and asks for change.

 This is the opposite of enlightenment this is anti enlightenment.

 Making others feel bad because of your own incicurities is what causes people to commit suicide. 

So next time you yell at someone, just try putting yourself in their shoes and understand that they have a completely separate existence to yours and you are selfish for trying to express anger at someone in such a vulnerable state. 

Adults can be bully's too. Currently I am noticing many adults who live in a self centered way. Adults with good jobs, and good lives. 

I found that practicing some sort of spirituality where you aren't just thinking about making a dollar or making your boss happy, will ultimately make you a better person.

This website has been in the making for 6 years. And I've finally found a conclusion to it.

Say goodbye to fame, say goodbye to riches, you are who you are. If people can't see you for that, then it's not worth arguing over. 

                                         . . . . . .so does this guy          &                     this fella here


I don't want to be the bearer of bad news

All of us are looking for something in this world to explain what it all means. Nobody has all the answers. As much as you may believe in something doesn't make it magically real. All you really know is what you've experienced and the present moment. If you can understand that simple fact, there is no way you'd get sucked into anything you're unsure of. Believe in the things you do. Make it count. YOLO after all

In addition to your experience, don't believe everything you conceive

                     Life can be a beautiful experience. There is all types of crap you'd really enjoy. 

                But our minds are easily manipulated. (well mine is at least) People have a way of contesting.

           Even if that means to bring their fellow human being down. Now i'm not all against this view.

             It just doesn't particularly interest me. The power hungry money seekers are what interests me.

           These people have it all. Maybe even more than that. They don't have troubles or worries.

                 But they are always out for more. What more can you obtain after riches and fame?

             Love.. Family.. prospects? I have all that and am more broke then ever, in the sense of currency.

          Shit get's tough, let me initiate my blog for a moment. I don't have a girlfriend, my teeth aren't perfect,             not everyone likes me, my face needs photoshop, i'm a huge sucker, I have tendency to be narcissistic.

                                                    These are all things that have an impact on my life

      Though I get through it and try to work with the things I have, because they aren't going anywhere.                               When you seek for more, you will find none. Just live your life. What's the worst that                                                                                                                                 can happen?


                                       Let's get serious for a minute. 

Basically, i'm an aspiring actor/ comedian/ model/ chef. I figure if one of these don't work out I always have 3 more backups. These are more hobbies than anything at the moment, due to the lack of funds coming from my work. As much as I enjoy going around to different locations in NYC and interacting with random people, I'd love getting paid for it one day.

Money makes the world go round' and queens gets the money. Nas'


                        How about some catributes

This kitten was brought to you by Warka in her second litter of kittens
Malenka, the runt and still a little cunt

I don't have some amazing story that really makes me stick out. Nor was I in a coma for 42 years and just awoke in a confused awe of the world. But I do have my experiences that nobody can take away from me. Except for drugs and alcohol. Which I must say, did take a big chunk out. Luckily i'm finding it to be a lot simpler to reminisce on the past with no substances.

The mother of 11 lovely kitties, and the tormentor of Malenka
Warka, oh this pussy loves to fuck shit up

                     Some Goofs, to get the ball rolling


                                                      ME AND MEDICINE

You ever look in your drawer and notice tons of different pills? Blue ones, green ones, red ones, white ones? Why exactly are they a certain color, and why do I care? You don't, that's the whole idea of creating so many brands of so many different relievers for so many different ailments. It's a lovely industry, but the perpetrators running it are psychopaths who actually need to practice what they preach. This may sound like a theory of conspiracy but get this; the national average for a medication user is about, $1,350 a year. If you multiply that by the average life span of an American 78 years, that would make 105,000 dollars per person. Now, check this out  327.16 million people in America, which would mean that 34 trillion dollars are used up by Americans, tax payers, and other means to pay for something that essentially wasn't used for thousands of years. Before the little red pill there was mint tea, ginger tea (25c a bag). The blue pill, there was chamomile, lemon water (20c a dose), before the white pills, we had marijuana, coco plant (cheap af-free) So with that math you'd think that we'd be saving over 33 trillion dollars in our lifetime by just using an approach that worked for thousands of years. And sure we didn't live as long but my opinion is there is much more quality in standard of living than length of which I live. 

Me & Philosophy

The thing with me is, without my perception of the world I'd be nothing. Every living conscious being has a perception of what they are, and why they are there. I'm no different. Actually that's all I am. A thought and no I don't mean the raunchy bitches who shake their heads and argue over nonsense. I'm a figure of my own imagination. A physical being, sure. What makes me what I am? ACTIONS. So yes I did just contradict myself. What causes an action if not a thought?

Thoughts can come and go, not everything has to be put out into the world. Just what can be used to express a desire, maybe an ambition, how about a positive attribute to society? That's where the thought of an action comes into place where you intuitively have the will to pick your path. Through that I must admit, this sounds more in the psychology category. 

This is what I use on the daily to decide how to portray myself. It's not hard to come to a basis of your actions and make life easier.

Come with me, through this journey, we will find ourselves in heaven soon enough :)


I have a book in the brewing

Credits
 Camilla, Noahbearproductions  

If by any chance you feel like donating for some reason, I have a page for that too

https://www.patreon.com/sebbyfel

Instagram